Ooh ooh ooh look what I’ve done! 😀
Picked up the final bound copies today. I still can’t quite believe it.
Today I went up to uni to take my final printed thesis to the binders. While I was up there I popped into the Kibble Palace, one of the glasshouses in the Botanic Gardens, and took a few pictures. There were a few I liked I could have chosen for today, I hope you like the eventual choice.
The printing wasn’t without dramaqueenery. I was trying to save paper by printing most of them (apart from the one that has to be ‘by the book’ for the library) double sided; unfortunately our printer doesn’t do automatic double sided printing so I was chained to the printer for most of the morning, and it didn’t always play nicely, which meant that I probably ended up not saving much more than if I’d just printed them all out one-sided. And of course, just as the final version was printing, I happened to flick through the bibliography and noticed – on the final page – a doozy of a typo. You’d think, after knowing where I did my research and how long it took me, that I’d know by now how to spell “Romania”. Sigh.
I also popped into uni where they’d been holding onto my PC (although they want to throw it away) until I could get to see it and check there wasn’t anything on the hard drive I still wanted to keep. While I was checking I also took the opportunity to download a heap of articles for a book chapter I’m working on – might as well make the most of the chance, as I won’t get it much longer.
It’s been a good day today. It’s my last day at work till May as I have next week off (and I will be taking it off properly, will be offline and all sorts), I heard that I was successful in the phone interview I had on Tuesday for some more OU tutoring (officially I am confirmed as ‘appointable’, they won’t be able to let me know if I will actually be appointed till much nearer the time when they know student numbers, but that is par for the course so I’m happy), and this evening I came back to the news that my thesis corrections have been accepted (I just need to correct 4 typos which crept in, having already corrected the hundreds that were already there). And then I went onto facebook to see that another of my departmental colleagues passed his viva today too. So here’s a book that neither of us will be needing any more! 🙂
This is the Glasgow University library, looking marginally less concrete and brutal thanks to being viewed through the trees. I spent much of the day here sorting out my remaining corrections which now – at last, and thanks to lots of help on facebook and the ship helping me out with the dastardly pagination – are finished and soon to be submitted. I have turned the thesis into a pdf file, and just have to do the same for my list of what I amended for the examiners, and then that’s it. Just in the nick of time (which I’m sure has come as a big surprise).
Yesterday we met up with a crowd of people from the ship to celebrate MacGuyver’s Apprentice’s 40th birthday (the youngster!). Here he is with a very starry cake.
I’ve started to think about my thesis corrections (just as well, as I’ve only got a fortnight to go to hand them in now!) and mostly think they’ll be fine. However, a couple of niggles occurred once I (eventually) received the confirmation from the graduate office of what needed to be done when. Firstly the administrator said he’d attached the viva form when he hadn’t (luckily the chair of my viva had already sent me a copy in the post), and infinitely more irritatingly, the email was headed “Viva result C”, even though I got a B. I emailed him back pointing this out, and luckily so has the chair of the viva, even though he is currently abroad. It’s only a small thing, and relatively unimportant as it’s easily done if you’re dealing with lots of these things, but when it’s my pride and joy he’s talking about and downgrading I reserve the right to harumph a bit!
I’ve contacted my supervisors to ask about them sending me pdf files of a couple of articles the examiners thought it would be useful for me to incorporate. Hopefully they will be able to, as I can’t get to the library till next weekend and I don’t have remote access to the ejournals in the library collection – I think I will be having a big blitz on it this coming weekend, but would like to have made a start on the reading before then. The plan is that I will get my outstanding essays marked by mid-week, the car to the garage on Friday then work on the thesis from home on Friday and the library Saturday and Sunday, then the following week mark a few essays in the evenings and then on the Friday go to get the revised copies printed and bound and handed in, then home to finish the essays. That’s the plan, hope I stick to it! The revised thesis has to be received in the graduate office by 18th April, but as I am working that day it makes sense to get it done the Friday before when I am off work. Then on the Saturday there is a shipmeet, I have a telephone tutorial to prepare for the following Monday, and then with any luck it will all be over for a while. I have one more lot of essays from each of the two courses I teach due in at the start of May, and tutorials for both to deliver at the end of May, and then with any luck I will get a proper rest!
I’m not quite coherent about this yet, but wanted to put some thoughts down before they flit away. So here, in list form, are some viva thoughts, in somewhat random order:
* the two hours beforehand are HORRIBLE.
* not wearing a watch is a good idea – it was about an hour and a quarter long, and felt like half that. It went SO quickly.
* they told me at the start it was a PhD thesis (which is like saying it passed without actually using those words). So the discussion was to clarify a few things and help them decide on the category of pass.
* I was really surprised by some of the questions. Some things I expected weren’t even mentioned, and other things I didn’t expect were discussed at length.
* I was really surprised they didn’t seem to notice how much less good chapter 6 is in comparison to the rest of it.
* I was really pleased they seemed to agree with me about the thesis ‘contribution to knowledge’. They want me to bring one aspect of it out a bit more in the conclusion.
* they worked really hard at putting me at my ease – it was OK when they asked me a question (about figures, comparing the figures I’d quoted with the UK) and I didn’t know off the top of my head.
* there was a sentence in the thesis I remember blogging about a few months ago which they picked up on and I thought of this blog straight away (I had blogged something along the lines of reading a sentence I’d written in an earlier draft which sounded great but I had no idea what I had meant. And then a short time later I read something in another book which shed light on it, and meant that I could rewrite it in a way that I could remember what I was talking about). They told me that was one of the main original contributions of the thesis!
* it is worthwhile cultivating supervisors who understand that providing chocolate for the wait between finishing the viva and waiting for the examiners to tell you the result is the best thing they can ever do for their student (I know it’s Lent, but I plead special dispensation. Frankly, it was beautiful and delicious and possibly the best bit of the whole day).
* people react differently whilst waiting and once the result is known. My friend O had her viva a week ago, and was apparently pacing up and down like a caged lion, and ecstatic afterwards. On reflection, I think my main reaction was looking gormless throughout! I was happy, obviously, but I didn’t feel any need to wear it all on my sleeve. I’ve been a bit smilier today 🙂
* adrenaline rushes can be considerably delayed. I hardly slept at all last night.
So that’s that. I have minor corrections, mainly expanding some sections/points, moving a couple of others and bigging up my contribution a bit more in the conclusion, and then correcting some typos and references. I have a month to do them, which means providing the corrections are accepted then I can go ahead and graduate in June! Sadly Glasgow don’t do silly floppy hats for their PhD graduates, which is most disappointing – after all these years of anguish and drama queenery the least they could do is give us an afternoon of looking ridiculous!
What to do on a day off? I headed to the Kelvingrove Museum for a bit of culture, as I’ve not been there for ages. I love the heads. The day was also made infinitely better when I discovered that there was a person with the glorious name of W. Oliphant Chuckerbutty (he wrote one of the pieces being performed at the Kelvingrove Organ Recital). Go on, tell me you didn’t smile when you read that!
This is where my university department lives. And where I did my viva (did I tell you I had my viva yesterday?! 😉 ).
Thesis typos. Dear God!
Glasgow University skyline.
Wet sleety snow in George Square. I woke up to snow on the ground so was hoping I’d get a nice picture of the square looking all snowy and lovely. But by the time I got there it was just really wet and slushy and this is the best I could do.
Quite a few people will have heard elsewhere that I had my PhD viva yesterday, hence the blog silence for a few days (why yes, I did pass with minor corrections, thank you for asking!). I will post separately about the viva, and will also post pictures (I have been faithfully still snapping away for Project365), but while I’ve not been posting I did creep in to record what happened in the week leading up to the viva, so here it is. Warning: the first day is rambling drama queenery.
[Started on 9th March] I’m posting this as a draft, to be published once my viva is over. I don’t want to broadcast the viva details to all and sundry in advance in case it all goes horribly wrong, but mainly because I don’t think I can handle the constant “how is it going?” “how is it going now?” “are you nervous?” etc. Not that I’m not massively grateful for everyone’s interest and support, I couldn’t have got this far without it, but now I’m so near the time for V-Day I’m a bit oversensitive and up myself about it.
Anyway. Tomorrow I have one week to go. Which I think makes today V-8.
V-8. Just today and tomorrow left at work before I take the week off to prepare. The last couple of days I’ve been feeling quite emotional. I’ve been thinking back over the more than 5 years since I started this, and am sad that because of the funding situation where I had to do all that teaching, and then having to go back to work after 4 years, I feel like apart from the months when I was doing my fieldwork, my PhD was always on the back burner, there were always other things I had to prioritise. Some things were good (getting married for a start!), but I always resented the teaching and marking and the massive amounts of time and energy it seemed to take out of me, meaning that I felt like I was always giving my thesis (and HD) the leftover energy. That’s been even more the case since going into health visiting again, and although it got a bit better with me going down from 5 to 4 days a week, the PhD did still get the dregs of energy after all the rest of it was used up, and I felt like I threw it in rather than submitted it properly. Even since it’s been submitted, what with my two jobs and all I’ve barely looked at it since (although I have thought about it a *lot*, and also dreamed about it a few times as well, rather traumatically!). But now I’ve got the week off coming, the intention was always that for this week, nothing comes between me and the thesis and, unlike most of the rest of the whole process, for this week the thesis is the absolute priority. I don’t think I could walk into the viva and get through it if I didn’t feel I had given it at least that.
I felt quite tearful at work today. This week I had a student nurse start; usually I really like having students, and this girl is really nice, but I’m finding that my usual thinking time, either at my desk or in the car between visits, where I’m reflecting on work, just isn’t there as I want her to make the most of the learning so am doing lots of teaching on the job. So I feel like I’m not thinking about work as deeply as I should, so I’m making silly mistakes like forgetting to bring my diary to clinic, or forgetting to phone people or write such-and-such in the notes, and that is stressing me out, never mind with the viva looming as well. And then my colleagues (who are lovely) keep asking me about the viva, because they care and they want me to do well and want me to be OK, and I feel so mean getting fed up of explaining all about the process *again* (I wish I had a £ for every time I have explained that submission doesn’t mean it’s all over, and then that once I’ve had the viva that doesn’t mean it’s all over, as I’ll have corrections etc – it’s really exhausting!). And then they are also talking about their own holidays, and I am feeling so resentful that apart from long weekends here and there, pretty much the only stretches of decent annual leave I’ve had this whole leave year have both been taken up with the thesis, and whilst they’re in the sun by the pool reading their books and drinking cocktails (which sounds like my idea of heaven right now!) I’m going to be in the library slogging my guts out *again*, and I just wish they’d talk about something else, but I can’t say that because it’s not their fault I’ve made these choices. But I am tired of it all and can’t wait for the week off anyway, I won’t be giving work a second thought while I’m off.
And then I get home, and in the evening find an email from the department saying that one of my colleagues passed her viva today with minor corrections only – that’s always such a good thing, O and I started at the same time here and she’s done so well, I’m so happy for her and am smiling as I then notice some more emails headed “Re: Viva Date”. And then I discover that there is potentially industrial action happening next week – on V-day, obviously – which, if it goes ahead, would leave me without a chairperson or internal examiner. Various emails are exchanged between the various parties with suggested other dates, and I just can’t believe it. Next week is off so I can prepare and think about nothing but the thesis right up to and including V-day, I haven’t got any more annual leave, and now there are suggested other days later in the month and no thought about how I have to arrange days off with my colleagues to make sure we have cover etc. So I send them an email pointing this out (hope it wasn’t too petulant – I was certainly feeling petulant) and then I have a big cry because it’s all just too much. They don’t know when they’ll know the outcome so think we should work towards it still happening on V-Day, and then if they don’t know by Monday (ie V-3) they’ll decide then to change the date. I’m feeling utterly disempowered, everyone is making decisions without me it seems, and the very week that I was putting my thesis first and it might be for nothing. This is really horrible. How am I supposed to do my planned preparation over the weekend, with all the adrenaline and psyched-up-ness of knowing the viva is only a few days away, when I don’t know that any more? But I can’t not prepare as planned as I haven’t got any other bloody time to do it. It is technically possible I could rearrange my week off, but as I won’t know till Monday what’s happening I’ll still have to take that day off anyway, which means if it’s arranged for a couple of weeks’ time I won’t be able to take the full week off before it that I always wanted and felt I needed. And even if I can rearrange the time off, that means I’ll have next week with no work arranged and my student all set up with activities elsewhere, and then I’ll have another week where I have to rearrange cover. I’m just beside myself. Not happy at all.
*And* I need to complete a job application this evening for a job down south (as HD has a job interview in a couple of days down south so that’s on my mind as well). I don’t think that’s going to happen in this mood – I think I’d better go to bed and do it early tomorrow morning before work when my head’s clearer. Great.
V-7 What a difference a day makes. The job application is sent off (posted and online, so no excuses not to consider me!), and I managed to speak to my supervisor who told me that they have rearranged the viva for next week after all, just the day before originally planned, so I don’t need to rearrange everything at work. This is good – less time to prepare, which isn’t so good, but also less time to panic, which is a very good thing indeed! I think they were also relieved that I’d started my email acknowledging that they were all in a difficult position, rather than just having a go at them (there is some form in the dept for viva date cockups), so I’m hoping that that will at least favourably dispose them towards me. I did say to her “you know what I’m like, can you imagine what a drama queen I was being last night?”, to which she laughed and said “yes”. Oops! Anyway. So now this is V-6 rather than V-7.
V-5 I need to finish my last few OU essays for marking and prepare a tutorial for tomorrow (at which I am not sure any students are actually going to come. Great. I’ll take the thesis with me and spend the 2 hours reading it if no students turn up). If I can get that all out of the way today then I can spend the rest of the time only doing the thesis. I’ve decided to go offline from today to help with that – I can’t afford to be distracted. Although today there is the news of the terrible earthquake in Japan, so I want to keep looking online to make sure people (especially marmot, in Hawaii) is safe from the tsunami.
V-3 I woke up to a discussion of the week’s news and review of the Sunday papers on the radio. One of the items discussed relates to work and makes me annoyed, but annoyingly I didn’t hear which paper it came from. HD listens again later so I know where it’s from and who wrote it. Unfortunately it’s from a paper with a paywall, so I can’t read it online (well I suppose I could, but I don’t really want to pay a billionaire any money, especially for an article that will annoy me!). I guess I’m in thesis/research mode, as apart from feeling annoyed I also think “I could maybe write an article about that”. Thesis-wise, I went into the university library instead of church, as I’m finding I’m getting really sleepy in the afternoon, and if the bed is there I just go for a snooze and then find myself waking up 2 hours later, which isn’t very conducive to revision! I chose to sit in my subject area at the library – usually I go to the top floor because it’s light and airy and has good views, but everyone else usually has the same idea. Thanks to belonging to an obscure department, that bit of the library is empty. I think I’m hoping that being surrounded by books of scholarship in my area I’ll get brainier and more knowledgeable by osmosis. I read through the first half of my thesis – actually it’s not that bad at all (apart from the typos, the shame of it!). Have quite a few “did I really write that? That sounds quite impressive” moments.
V-2. More stuff on the radio this morning about yesterday’s annoying article, which is picked up in a couple of other papers. Use my brain today and actually think to buy them rather than leaving it to online chance. Before going out though I had to phone work, as last night I remembered a couple of things I’d forgotten to do which couldn’t wait till I got back. Hopefully now I can stop thinking about work altogether!
I went back to the library, same floor, and read the second half of the thesis. It’s all OK I think, though chapter 6 isn’t quite as good as the rest (I think I knew that anyway). I also managed to find the time to catch up with a couple of friends in my lunch break. Everyone seems very confident I’ll do OK, and I mostly feel OK about it myself. Am a bit annoyed with myself though that I’ve found a few places where I quote sources (and reference them) but then didn’t put them in the bibliography, so I’ll have to dig them out at some point. Hopefully if I can present the examiners with a list of typos and things I’ve noticed there will be a shorter corrections list.
Wonder how I ever did my first degree – I did regular all-nighters and they didn’t seem to bother me at all. These days I get to 6pm and am no good for anything, I just want to sleep.
And I’m really missing the internet! Might have a sneaky look at some blogs now ….. not much brain power left for tonight …..
V-1 Back to the library, read most recent book chapter by external examiner (very useful – it’s musings on methodology and her research used very similar methodology to me). Pop into the department, everyone is very lovely and supportive. Plan last minute answers to potential questions. I’m sure I ought to be in more of a flap than this.
Things to do tonight: find shoes, make sure outfit fits, type up list of typos (which runs to 6 PAGES, can you imagine my mortification?), go to friends’ place for cake (v.important job, that), probably lots of other things too but I can’t remember. That’ll do for now.
Later on V-1 – Shoes found (HD had tidied them away in one of his periodic tidying frenzies). Trousers don’t fit though, so I’m going to have to resort to the cheap shiny work trousers which I can at least do up. Pass the cake.
V-Day! Feeling OK, I start the morning by printing out my list of typos and checking a couple of references, then it’s off to the Cathedral for Morning Prayer, as I wanted to start the day calm and centred (it worked). Then off to the library to reread some of the thesis – concentrating on the Introduction, Conclusion and 2 lit review chapters. Realise around 11 o’clock that there’s only just over 2 hours to go. Feel sick. Have lunch, sit in uni chapel and say a little prayer. Then to the department …….. [to be continued]
Regular readers may remember me writing about writing a chapter for an edited volume resulting from a conference I participated in a couple of years ago in Helsinki. Well the book finally arrived this week – this is a detail from the front cover. I am finally a published academic 🙂 I keep looking at it and thinking “ooh, get me!”
Of course, the first thing I did was turn to my chapter, where I spotted a typo. May I just say how much I loathe MS Word’s autocorrect with the burning heat of a thousand red hot pokers? Why thank you. (I’m also cross with myself for not noticing it before, it was a Romanian word so I couldn’t expect the editors to spot it. I had read it SO carefully. Oh well. I’ll have to aim for perfection with the next chapter, about which I am still in considerable denial, as the deadline is quite soon after my PhD viva).
I handed in the thesis on Tuesday! It was a very strange feeling (not helped by the fact that I couldn’t actually find the way in to the building and ended up hammering on a locked door which was some sort of tradesman’s entrance!). On Monday night when I got the 3 bound copies of the thesis out to take a picture and to show HD, I found myself all teary, I don’t think I’d realised how much I’d got into it and how much it meant to me. I still think it tails off a bit at the end and I am sure I know what the examiners will say about it (needing more theory thread thoughout the empirical chapters – I guess I’m just not a theorist), but it got to the point where it just had to be good enough in the time left, and what is there should pass some sort of muster even though I am expecting corrections. I will be happy with 3 months’ corrections, am not expecting ‘just minor’ corrections, and it could be 6 months. My supervisor, who was herself an external examiner at another university at the start of the week, told me that really what is required is that I can justify what I did and defend why I did it, and she is confident I can do that.
Since handing it in I feel like I haven’t stopped. I still had some essays to mark, which took longer than I would have liked, and I have still had the day job to do. The flat is slightly less of a tip now than it was, HD has done a great job of sorting out the bedroom, and last night we were able to sleep in the bedroom again for the first time in a week (we had had to decamp to the sofabed in the living room as the bedroom was too damp). I have been getting up very early most days to either faff about on the thesis or mark essays before work, so although I had a great night’s sleep last night I’m going to need a lot more than that to catch up.
And now I can finally think about Christmas. We’ve not bought cards as there has simply not been time to do anything about them, so apologies to anyone who was expecting one. Hopefully next year I’ll be more organised, and might even attempt another cartoon letter. Apart from a couple of secret santa presents for work colleagues and something for HD ordered from the internet and then not delivered because of the snow I haven’t bought a single thing, so tomorrow I am picking up HD’s present from the depot and then we are going to have to hit the shops. Mmmm, city centre the last Saturday before Christmas, that’s going to be a pleasant experience ….
In other news Dudley (the car) is not sounding very healthy 🙁