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Feeling sorry for myself

Today I was supposed to have a day off in order to work on my thesis. Unfortunately at about 2.20am I had to get up and puke, and I was puking all morning. I think there is a bug going round as I think a few people around have had something similar. This afternoon and evening I have stopped barfing, but do have quite spectacular diarrhoea. I know this is all Too Much Information, but you know when you feel sorry for yourself and you just have to tell everyone.

I feel crap 🙁

This week I shall mostly be …

* marking OU essays, and
* writing a thesis chapter, and
* working full time, while
* trying not to cough up any more of my lungs (a fine image for a professional health promoter, no?).

No wonder I’m knackered.

But, excitingly, today HD and I booked our first proper holiday since our honeymoon almost 2 years ago. We are off adventuring in February, I can’t wait!

I hate headaches

I had to go home after lunch today, as I was looking at the screen of my computer and seeing flashing lights and feeling sick, so thinking about my chapter (which was supposed to be in today) just wasn’t going to happen. On the bus, I sat in front of someone who was eating a burger and behind someone who smelt like they had washed with carbolic soap, and had to close my eyes, put my hand over my face and try not to heave as the smells from all sides were overwhelming (normally I’d just think “yuck, that smells” and that would be it, but when I’m in the grip of a headache, it just takes over and all I can think about is how horrible the smell is). I spent the afternoon in a dark room, dozing and dosed up with Migraleve. I felt better when I got up (at 6) but I find after a headache that it feels really weird for the rest of the day. I think they call it “migraine with aura” – it’s really hard to explain, the best I can do is to say it’s like standing on the edge of a cliff (or edge of anything, really). When I quiet myself down, I can feel myself rocking slightly, and eyelids flickering, and I could fall either way.


In other news, I have just found myself in my spam folder. It comes to something when even my own blog hates me! I’m still going to spam in quite a few blogs (Tractor Girl, check your spam folder), which is v. irritating. A girl could get paranoid.

In other other news, we went to a fantastic Celtic Connections gig last night. As with the best ones, the support acts were so good it felt like we’d got our money’s worth even before the main act came on. The main act this time was a Quebecois band called La Bottine Souriante (the support acts were another Quebecois band called Le Vent du Nord and an Irish singer called Julie Fowlis). All 3 acts were absolutely superb – pictures (which aren’t that brilliant, but not too bad) will be on my Glasgow photo blog next week. I didn’t touch a drop of alcohol so I know that the headache wasn’t hangover-related. I did try to read Foucault on the bus on the way to work this morning though, maybe that was what did it.


Today’s drama started early, when I woke up in pain and with severe difficulty in moving my right leg and (especially) make any movement involving my right bum cheek (surprisingly many, it turns out).  I couldn’t think of any clumsy walking-into-something-at-right-bum-cheek-level incidents recently, or any unusual twisting or lifting or anything, so decided in the early morning haze that it couldn’t possibly be anything muscular.  So I have spent the day diagnosing myself with all sorts of things which I won’t discuss here (especially the particular diagnosis that led to a rather over-dramatised message on HD’s voicemail), and generally making that “ooooohhhhhhrr” sound whenever I either got up or sat down or moved at all really.  I’ve just been to the doctor and been assured it’s definitely muscular, so am now feeling rather silly.  But it still hurts, so not totally silly.

I’m getting a bit fed up of having to think about and brace myself for any movement – lowering myself onto the toilet, putting on shoes, that sort of thing.  Ow 🙁

In other news, it sounds like HD’s interview went well, though we won’t know for a while.  But he sounded calm and happy about it (just as well, given that I’m being enough of a drama queen for both of us*) so I’m happy for now.

[*Surely not – Ed]

Splutter, bleurgh

I’m sure this happened last time too – today the essays I’m going to spend all next week marking are being handed in, and I really feel like I’m coming down with the lurgy. I have a sore throat and a bit of a cough, and a fuzzy headed feeling too. It’s probably all psychosomatic, but is giving me even more ammunition in my “I don’t wanna be a teacher” campaign. It’s bad for your health – official.

I’ve just submitted an abstract to speak at a conference in September (it’ll be a rehash of the talk I will be doing at the end of this month at Scaryconference), and requested a form to do another rehash of the same talk at another conference in June. I have also spent some time doing a (much-needed) sort-out and organisation of my university emails, but really I didn’t have to do it today. It’s just that with the essays being in today, and so me spending all next week marking, I have to finish my conference talk by tomorrow, so the procrastination mechanism is in full flow. When I get home I shall do the ironing and housework, and then wonder why I’m stressed tomorrow.

Last minute fieldwork

I’m having a bit of a funny old day today. I’ve just had some good news from HD which has made me very happy and improved the day enormously though, so that’s good.

Yesterday the Man Flu got worse again and, having felt OK on Saturday, I spent all Sunday morning in bed groaning and feeling miserable and not quite daring to stand up because my head was spinning. But because I had lots of interviews today, I had to get up to prepare, and what would normally take me a couple of hours ended up taking more like 7, and when I finished I realised it was time for bed! So much for a day of rest.

Today’s interviews have been sort of OK, and sort of not that great really. I reckon they would have been fine if I’d done them towards the start of fieldwork, but now I’m in my last week here, I’m really struggling to be arsed with it. I found the first one OK, and thought the second was in the same building (actually it was just up the road, so I went to the wrong office to start with, which didn’t put me in the best mood ever. I’m getting quite tired of trying to locate buildings which don’t have numbers or obvious entrances or have ambiguous street signs and which all look the same as the next building. It’s a wonder I’ve ever found any of these people, let alone interviewed them). The second interview really was a case of “well I’m here so I’ll do the interview but I honestly can’t be doing with it and I’d rather be in bed” so I don’t think the interviewee was that impressed with me, but I felt too ill to care. I then made my way (by dint of quite a bit of a walk and then an unknown bus) to the third, only to find that a. I couldn’t find the building (same reasons as before – no number, no street sign, all look the same) and b. when I phoned the person to ask for directions it turned out she was in a totally different part of town (she had told me the right address, but I had written the address in my diary from a photocopied business card which was clearly out of date). So I had to hot foot it across town and get a taxi (which was a rip-off – I could have got half way to the airport for the price he charged, grrr, but needs must) and was only about 2 minutes late, but I was all sweaty and flustered, and my interviewee had even worse Man Flu than I did so didn’t get the impression she really wanted to talk to me – because it was too painful as well as because I was probably smelly and gross – and croaked her way through it with me spending the whole time praying that the dictaphone would pick up her whispers. I’m sure it’s fine, but if she hadn’t been in a hurry (and ill) and I hadn’t been flustered and kicking myself for being stupid and not checking the right address, it would have been much better. I have another interview this evening and then will be catching up with my one expat friend here as this is our last chance before I leave. Which will be good, but to be honest all I really want to do is go to bed and sleep for a week. No chance of that though – too much to do!

Christ Church bloggy stuff

At some point reasonably soon, Mary is, God and Bishop-willing, going to be ordained as an OLM. I’m sure she’d appreciate prayers (and her loyal fans would appreciate a blog update 😉 ). [3rd attempt, hopefully the link will work now]

Intrepid Expat has finally arrived in Khartoum, and has started blogging – hooray! I’m sure she’d be happy to be prayed for too.

And Jane (blog pending, I hope) (*spot the subliminal subtle hint*) is off to vicar factory, today I think – definitely pray for her.

As for me – I fly to Romania a week today, and to the UK 2 weeks today! Will everything be done in time? Will I defeat the dastardly Man Flu before I leave? Will the Sibiu internet cafe staff remember me and greet me like a long-lost friend? Will I overcome my pathological phone phobia and speak to all the remaining scary people (who are fine and normal and lovely really)? Stay tuned ….

It’s all because of the Man Flu

Despite T&E’s assertions that Man Flu isn’t a real illness (dith: you’re welcome, glad to be of assistance), I woke up this morning feeling Grotty. Really really ill. Not helped by my landlady insisting on giving me a camomile (urgh) tea without removing the teabag (double urgh) and stirring in a spoonful of strawberry jam (triple urgh). Yes thank you it was indeed as foul as it sounds. I managed about half a cup out of politeness, but even being the ultimate diplomat I couldn’t bring myself to finish it.

I have though valiantly made my way into town to at least try and do some work (which is why I have been in the internet cafe for an hour on the ship and facebook and reading blogs, obviously) so I don’t feel like I’ve completely wasted my time here. I only have just over a week left here, and there’s still stuff to do, but right now I feel too grotty to care much. I just want to go home!

Anyway, I signed up with the other internet forum with my new name, but I’m guessing there must be a problem with cookies because every time I log in it just takes me back to the log in page, over and over again. It’s like being in Groundhog Day. I’m sure it would be fine if I didn’t have Man Flu.

I didn’t mention yesterday’s adventure, when I headed out to the countryside about an hour’s bus ride away from the city to do an interview there. It was really interesting, very very different from the city, and I’m so glad I got the chance. I took a few photos (not many) but it wasn’t the best day weather-wise so they’re not that great, unfortunately. But I’m so glad for the opportunity – I know I’m moaning and want to go home, but I am still having some really great experiences and am glad I’m having them.

They’d be even better if I didn’t have Man Flu, obviously.

Matters arising

Thank you for your suggestions on the last post – I have come up with my own name after all that and won’t be using any of them, but kerensa and T&E may well be the recipient of a prize at some point (as previously mentioned, levels of “virtuality” and “reality” of this prize will depend on baggage allowances next week, so don’t get your hopes up too high). I’m not going to use my email name as I don’t want to attract any more spam, but have come up with something location-related with a nod to my current and usual locations, and (very obliquely) Brockley, and which is also nothing at all like “jackthelass” so am happy with it.

Mind you, I’m not going to post on that forum today as I have got man flu and am dying. It (and everything else) can wait. Woe is me! (send chocolate).